Well I just spent a week in a treatment centre for co-dependency and I must say by the end of the 6 days I was not feeling the fibro pain as much. Now I was not exerting myself and cleaning and cooking, so I am curious to know which came first! Also, my IBS was not an issue at all either. Curious!? Is it the fact that I had 3 square meals a day and not my regular stress from home or is it because I was not having to do the regular stuff and someone was making my meals and therefore no stress at all, (except working through all my co-dependency crap!) Not sure! And I'm not sure how to follow up with that and see, other than go back to the treatment centre :-)

For anyone reading this who does not know what a co-dependent is, because I certainly did not before my doctor and counselor placed that label on me it means from the Webster's Dictionary:

Definition of CODEPENDENCY

: a psychological condition or a relationship in which a person is controlled or manipulated by another who is affected with a pathological condition (as an addiction to alcohol or heroin); broadly: dependence on the needs of or control by another

 

Now this is definitely me. I have seen a pattern all my life. So which came first, the Fibro or the Co-Dependency. If you ever enter a treatment program, it is probably going to come to light that it was the co-dependency. But that's another blog

 

Back to my being symptom free from Fibro for 6 days.... It was a blessing. And it has happened many times in my life before. When life seems to go good, I can be relatively symptom free... and that is only in looking back with a different set of eyes. Oh I might still have IBS or the occasional painful day, but other than that not as severe as I have been as of late. That is something I will have to look at ...and try and see a pattern.

 

I am still digesting it all... and still trying to understand this wonderful (insert sarcasm here) condition that I have... and every layer that I pull back I discover something else.

 

Be patient with me, and I will try and be patient with myself...

 

WOW! Where to start!!

I have had fibro since the mid to late 80's. But back then, as now, there was no concrete diagnosis. I had had a terrible flu, that made me very ill for about 6 months. It never seemed to go away. My doctor told me I had something new, called Fibromyalgia, and that there were no blood tests, x-rays, diagnostic tools, that were definitive in diagnosis. I would have to trust her, that she knew I had it because I had 11 out of 18 tenderpoints. I left the office thinking she was a quack. And never looked back.

Hindsight, being 20/20, I can look back and see many, many points in my life where I did not recover as well as I should have from different flu's, colds. And then in 1991 I had my second child. And I felt like my life force was sucked out of me. I never recouped from that time.

Over the next 20 years I have gotten progressively worse and worse. In 2003 I developed bacterial meningitis. And have gone downhill from there. Up until 2003 I had never had surgery, besides impacted wisdom teeth removed at 18 when I was pregnant with my first child. Maybe that is when this all started. Who knows.

Since then I have been to many, many doctors, pain clinics, tried many medicines, and to no avail. Right now I am currently on Lyrica and Cymbalta. I try not to take pain medications.

This is my journey, from this day forward, to help me adjust, cure, have better days, or simply plug through each and every day.

Thanks for following... I would love to hear comments...